The page always calls me back, the love always beats the fear 🙏🌟❤️ those last lines are the type that make me go ohhh and think how do people write such beautiful sentences. I love your attitude towards all of it. I personally loved reading this.
Thank you for sharing. I was thoroughly absorbed and moved. Even as a native English writer, I relate to what you wrote. Thanks for this tenderly vulnerable piece of writing. So glad I stumbled on your page 🤍
How I feel you! It has only been recently that I've managed to let go of my quest of speaking a perfect English, with the right accent so that you couldn't tell me apart from the locals. It has been a 360 of letting go of my frustration at French people not pronouncing words correctly - why does it matter?! We are lucky to have such multiculturalism.
True! Imo, it should be viewed as a cool things when someone speaks accented English. It means someone took the time, likely years of practice, to pick up our language and culture, and now they've mixed in a hint of their own while retaining their accent! Multiculturalism is a gift!
We are so lucky! That's absolutely right! I am so glad you let go of that quest and are living your best accent life!!! 😍 I mean come on! EVERYONE LOVES A FRENCH ACCENT! 😍
Hahahahaa that is hilarious! I Also don't have an italian accent or a very recognisable one. I get the wildest guesses as to where I am from. Nobody ever gets it right 😂
That's how you know you're a true writer—even when things are frustrating and difficult and you can't get words onto a page, you still write anyway because writing is a calling, not just a hobby.
So please, let us all, despite the hardships, just chase our callings and "write anyways!"
Truly grateful for your writing, Nadia. Also, I feel this so much: “When I have an influx of new subscribers I get paralysed... Tell me I am worthy.” ❤️
I love how you describe your devotion of words and what always calls you back to the page. I resonate so much with that push pull of it all. The holding of - am I worthy enough to keep this up? Alongside the -but I can't not do it. It needs to pour out.
I am so excited that everyone on here understands that feeling. Nobody is alone in this. Thank you for letting me know your thoughts Allison ❤️ So glad you are here!
Once again another great post from you. I have felt like I am in a bit of an Interesting moment in my writing. On one hand, I feel like I’m bubbling with creativity. My notebooks are calling me now more than ever, and when I respond, I usually have a lot to say. On the other hand, I’m struggling with my writing and sometimes worrying that it isn’t good enough, that I’m not growing, that I will never be able to replicate or match the skills of my favorite writers in the world. I have tried to push through that by just writing. I literally write a poem right before I discovered this. So I feel like I found this right on time. Thanks for sharing!
Thank you for sharing this with me Stanley! How beautiful that you're feeling so much inspiration right now! I find that this is the paradox of life: To live between the tension of two opposites, bubbling over with creativity and not liking what you write 🙃 Talk about annoying! It seems like life is telling you to just do it, let out what wants to come out and worry about the 'quality' some other time. I am so glad the words found you just when you needed them! ❤️
I truly enjoyed reading this! As a non-native there were lots of similarities to my own story but when you wrote you were a wedding photographer it really clicked. I feel like I lived through that time period with my photography, too. Thanks for this piece! 😍
I love this so much- thank you for sharing ❤️ I think of myself as a bit of a "feral writer"- I haven't been formally trained, I don't have the MFA, I'm yet to write a book... I just love words and playing with them. And when I'm in my own world, doing my thing, any structure or rules around "what you are supposed to be to be a writer" fall away. I find the only time I start to get wiggy on it all is when I start to question my "right" to be a writer and all that that means... which leads me down the rabbit hole of thoughts you have so beautifully described.
Maybe writing, and indeed language, belongs to us the moment we decide it does. Thank you xx
I think it’s cool to just write because it’s flexing a muscle. I used to get block from the expectations and since starting a journal practice, it’s been clarifying for what I actually want to write vs the nonsense. Also, bucking perfectionism because the people who subscribe like your work and want to read what you have to offer!
Unfortunately for myself, I *am* a perfectionist, so it's been challenging for me to unlearn it all! That being said: I think showing up messy and imperfect provides vulnerability and a sense of trust and intimacy, because as writers-- our work is tender and personal.
Basically, When I read your publications , I wonder “how can someone do this? “ I feel that with you ! Every publication is a part of my heart ♥️ , after reading this, I ended up crying because this is mi story and it hurts.
I lived with this for whole last week “When I have an influx of new subscribers I get paralysed... Tell me I am worthy.” Last week, my post "Empathy with Boundaries" received the most numbers and love. This week I was busy and tired, but pushed myself to get out a piece as I was feeling the pressure to keep my new subscribers happy. Now I am comparing my numbers of this week's post and last week, feeling like I didn't do quite a good job this week. But in all those feelings what I did was, I wrote anyway and I will keep writing. Thank you for this motivation on a Monday morning :)
Oh my god yes, it's always a rollercoaster right? It's never linear growth from week to week so completely pointless to try and beat that! I don't want to be a slave to this rollercoaster! Sending you so much love!
I see you, Nadia and when you talked about freezing and feeling dumb - oh that rumbled in my chest. That’s so me. This is an incredible call to write through the doubt and comparison. Thank you.
Oh rumble in my chest - what a beautiful phrase 😍 Learning these things makes me so happy! Thank you for reading, relating and telling me so Shondra! ❤️
The page always calls me back, the love always beats the fear 🙏🌟❤️ those last lines are the type that make me go ohhh and think how do people write such beautiful sentences. I love your attitude towards all of it. I personally loved reading this.
Thank you so much for reading and relating and being here Hannah! I am so thrilled to make other people oooh and ahahh 😆
You are so welcome, looking forward to reading anything you write, such a beautiful way with words. You inspire ✨️
Thank you for sharing. I was thoroughly absorbed and moved. Even as a native English writer, I relate to what you wrote. Thanks for this tenderly vulnerable piece of writing. So glad I stumbled on your page 🤍
Awww Robyn! This means the world! Thank you so much for being here!
How I feel you! It has only been recently that I've managed to let go of my quest of speaking a perfect English, with the right accent so that you couldn't tell me apart from the locals. It has been a 360 of letting go of my frustration at French people not pronouncing words correctly - why does it matter?! We are lucky to have such multiculturalism.
True! Imo, it should be viewed as a cool things when someone speaks accented English. It means someone took the time, likely years of practice, to pick up our language and culture, and now they've mixed in a hint of their own while retaining their accent! Multiculturalism is a gift!
We are so lucky! That's absolutely right! I am so glad you let go of that quest and are living your best accent life!!! 😍 I mean come on! EVERYONE LOVES A FRENCH ACCENT! 😍
The funny thing is...I don't actually have a French accent 🤣 Everytime people wonder if I'm German or South African 🤔
Hahahahaa that is hilarious! I Also don't have an italian accent or a very recognisable one. I get the wildest guesses as to where I am from. Nobody ever gets it right 😂
yesss I agree with Hannah, these last reminders are so important and resonant. thank you for sharing it all 💚
Thank you for letting me know you enjoyed it Michelle!
That's how you know you're a true writer—even when things are frustrating and difficult and you can't get words onto a page, you still write anyway because writing is a calling, not just a hobby.
So please, let us all, despite the hardships, just chase our callings and "write anyways!"
Ah, your words are a balm, thank you for being so kind!
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Truly grateful for your writing, Nadia. Also, I feel this so much: “When I have an influx of new subscribers I get paralysed... Tell me I am worthy.” ❤️
Omg all the time 😂 Thankfully it's not stopping me, but the fear and desire to impress i real! Just need to ignore it every week! 😂
Your relationship with words is beautiful 🌹
Thank you for sharing it with us through your posts and offering a glimpse into the story of your life each week.
Thank you so much for being here Jamal. Your support means the world!
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I love how you describe your devotion of words and what always calls you back to the page. I resonate so much with that push pull of it all. The holding of - am I worthy enough to keep this up? Alongside the -but I can't not do it. It needs to pour out.
Thank you, Nadia.
I am so excited that everyone on here understands that feeling. Nobody is alone in this. Thank you for letting me know your thoughts Allison ❤️ So glad you are here!
Saw this post restacked and instantly tapped on it. What a beautiful read. 🤍 I’m subscribing right now. 😌
You honour me! Thank you! 🙏🏼
Once again another great post from you. I have felt like I am in a bit of an Interesting moment in my writing. On one hand, I feel like I’m bubbling with creativity. My notebooks are calling me now more than ever, and when I respond, I usually have a lot to say. On the other hand, I’m struggling with my writing and sometimes worrying that it isn’t good enough, that I’m not growing, that I will never be able to replicate or match the skills of my favorite writers in the world. I have tried to push through that by just writing. I literally write a poem right before I discovered this. So I feel like I found this right on time. Thanks for sharing!
Thank you for sharing this with me Stanley! How beautiful that you're feeling so much inspiration right now! I find that this is the paradox of life: To live between the tension of two opposites, bubbling over with creativity and not liking what you write 🙃 Talk about annoying! It seems like life is telling you to just do it, let out what wants to come out and worry about the 'quality' some other time. I am so glad the words found you just when you needed them! ❤️
I truly enjoyed reading this! As a non-native there were lots of similarities to my own story but when you wrote you were a wedding photographer it really clicked. I feel like I lived through that time period with my photography, too. Thanks for this piece! 😍
I feel like every creative has to go through a time like that! ❤️
I love this so much- thank you for sharing ❤️ I think of myself as a bit of a "feral writer"- I haven't been formally trained, I don't have the MFA, I'm yet to write a book... I just love words and playing with them. And when I'm in my own world, doing my thing, any structure or rules around "what you are supposed to be to be a writer" fall away. I find the only time I start to get wiggy on it all is when I start to question my "right" to be a writer and all that that means... which leads me down the rabbit hole of thoughts you have so beautifully described.
Maybe writing, and indeed language, belongs to us the moment we decide it does. Thank you xx
Oh I love this! It belongs to us if we decide it does 😍 cheers to being a feral writer!
Cheers indeed 🥂 ❤️
I think it’s cool to just write because it’s flexing a muscle. I used to get block from the expectations and since starting a journal practice, it’s been clarifying for what I actually want to write vs the nonsense. Also, bucking perfectionism because the people who subscribe like your work and want to read what you have to offer!
I agree! Thankfully I'm not a perfectionist, never have been, which is why I think I always kept writing 😂😂😂
Unfortunately for myself, I *am* a perfectionist, so it's been challenging for me to unlearn it all! That being said: I think showing up messy and imperfect provides vulnerability and a sense of trust and intimacy, because as writers-- our work is tender and personal.
Basically, When I read your publications , I wonder “how can someone do this? “ I feel that with you ! Every publication is a part of my heart ♥️ , after reading this, I ended up crying because this is mi story and it hurts.
I am sorry it hurt Erika! I hope you are being gentle with yourself! Sending you love!
I lived with this for whole last week “When I have an influx of new subscribers I get paralysed... Tell me I am worthy.” Last week, my post "Empathy with Boundaries" received the most numbers and love. This week I was busy and tired, but pushed myself to get out a piece as I was feeling the pressure to keep my new subscribers happy. Now I am comparing my numbers of this week's post and last week, feeling like I didn't do quite a good job this week. But in all those feelings what I did was, I wrote anyway and I will keep writing. Thank you for this motivation on a Monday morning :)
Oh my god yes, it's always a rollercoaster right? It's never linear growth from week to week so completely pointless to try and beat that! I don't want to be a slave to this rollercoaster! Sending you so much love!
Thank you, to you too :)
I see you, Nadia and when you talked about freezing and feeling dumb - oh that rumbled in my chest. That’s so me. This is an incredible call to write through the doubt and comparison. Thank you.
Oh rumble in my chest - what a beautiful phrase 😍 Learning these things makes me so happy! Thank you for reading, relating and telling me so Shondra! ❤️