There is a Nadia before and a Nadia after. Before 2019 and after 2019. The people who know me from before, know a somewhat more relaxed, easygoing, carefree version - and also one that was a harmful Christian, in a miserable marriage, trying to fit in with her environment, hoping to fake it til she would make it.
The people who have come into my life after 2019 know a different Nadia and I feel a tiny bit sorry for them.