To D, whom I have long forgotten

From the lost heartbreak archives

I want to forget the feeling of your hands burning on my skin.
The way you nestled your face into my hair.
I want to forget your sunny smile.
I want to forget the way your eyes held mine
when you were so close
and how my name sounded from your lips.
The gentle nape of your neck,
your eyes disappearing when you laughed.
I want to forget the first, soft kiss.
I want to forget your arms around me,
forget that you could hold me until the morning,
without turning away.
I want to forget the sweet things you said
and the kind things you did.
I want to only remember the hurtful words,
and the humiliation.
I want the good to fade
The way we forget how warm spring is
until the season changes again.
I want to forget all the reasons why my heart was tender for you
and remember all the reasons why you were poison for my soul.